In these moments I had never felt so much emotion in my life. I had no idea how to deal with the rush. I was so confused... Mostly about how I managed to complete all the miles. I was confused on what pain really meant... emotional vs physical. I was excited to bring this devastating situation to an end. It gave me a sense of closure. I poured my pain into that road, I let all that shit go. It was raw AF. It was terrifying to replay moments, conversations, and memories from the past but I knew I had to in order to move forward. We always do too good a job of suppressing things when we don’t want to deal with them. .
I know Jessica was with me every step of the way, she pushed me past my breaking points. I knew the pain would subside, I knew the injuries would heal. However, I also knew that nothing would bring her back. So then what? How do I move forward with light when all I see is darkness? This journey was my way of dealing with it. .
Everything I do is so public and I had no idea what to do during this earth shattering experience. I could have either crashed and burned or stood up and used my social channel to do something great and raise awareness and funds to make this situation positive. So that’s exactly what I did. It was a pretty odd emotional state to be in since I had never been through anything like this before. I do want to say thank you to YOU all for your support and love during the toughest time of my life. .
Now, the world will be able to see my journey through iFit’s camera lens and perspective. I was fortunate enough to have a film crew document my experience around the Ring Road of Iceland and now you will get to see it too.
From the bottom of my heart, I want to thank the team that rode by my side during the good and the bad times around the Ring Road. My team @pumpfit_paulo @courtyquiiiinn @meghanduncan_ @kingboz23 thank you ❤️ to @ifit Taylor, Spencer, and Jordan xoxo we have memories to last a lifetime. #FindYourReason #FindTheRoad #HannahEdenFitness #SereneSoldier